"All along it was a fever A cold sweat high-headed believer. I threw my hands in the air and said, "Show me something," He said, "If you dare come a little closer."
Happy Valentine's Day to everyone who's a high headed believer that love and all its glory is real, that everyone gets a chance to live it, feel it. But what about those who don't believe? Who have been burned countless times because of love, because they let someone in and they left even though they promised that they would never leave, that they would always stay.
But that's love right? It's a risk we all at one point in our life take. The risk of knowing that we could possibly lose ourselves to somebody else, to a stranger who somehow captures us enough that we are willing to give it everything and anything to make it work. But it doesn't always work, too many times we get hurt, we lose, and for what? For a chance to live in pure bliss, even if its for a moment, just a moment of pure bliss isn't that what love is when it works out? Pure bliss.
But that's not to say that we always lose, no some of us, some lucky amount of us they win. They find the people they're supposed to be with and even though there are bumps on the road, sometimes too many to count, they overcome them..together. See the thing about love is that it's a two way street, but too often only one person puts effort while the other just takes without giving. But on rare occasions, you'll find someone who will put just as much or even more than you because they love you, they want to spend forever with you. When someone is meant for you, truly and honestly meant for you they will always find their way to you. They will cherish you, like a gift from the heavens, as if God himself made you for each other.
It's nice to dream, to believe that we will all get our own little piece of heaven, and most of the time we do, some sooner than others, but still in the end we do. But what about those of us who spend their life alone? Is it because they had no one to complete them? Is it because their soul mate never made it to them? What went wrong that you never found your other half? Or better yet did something go right that you ended up alone? People always seem to think that if you're alone you're lonely..but truth of the matter is that not everyone wants to be with someone and we need to accept that yes maybe you do have a soul mate and yes maybe you are in love with them but that doesn't mean you're supposed to be with them. I heard once, "just because you're in love with someone doesn't mean you're meant to be together," sad isn't it? That you could fall head over heels in love with someone but you just aren't meant to be together. But sometimes that's whats best and we need to accept it and live with it knowing that maybe all we need is just to be happy being alone, happy knowing that we experienced love and lost it, because it's better to have love and lost than to never love at all right?
"Oh the reason I hold on, oh cause I need this hole gone. Funny you're the broken one but I'm the only one who needed saving. Cause when you never see the light it's hard to know which one of us is caving. Not really sure how to feel about it. Something in the way you move makes me feel like I can't live without you. It takes me all the way. I want you to stay."
Well to make a long post short (ha like if its not long enough haha.) I just want you readers to understand that love as beautiful as it can be can also be disgustingly painful and what comes from it isn't always joy but sometimes sorrow. But either way no matter the outcome you loved, you felt, you lived in those moments you shared with someone you lived. Never be scared to love, to open up, yes the fear of knowing it might not work out or that you will get hurt will always be there but what kind of a life are you living if you don't let yourself feel love and pain? One can't exist without the other, there can't be a rainbow without rain.
"It's not much of a life you're living. It's not just something you take – it's given."
xoxo. O
